YOUR SECRET SELF: ILLUMINATING THE MYSTERIES OF THE TWELFTH HOUSE
BY TRACY MARKS
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Your twelfth house moon suggests
that you are a pr!ate perso"# hesta"t to re!ea$ your %ee$"gs a"& "ee&s' (%te"# %ear%u$ o% your !u$"era)$ty# you )$o*+ a,are"ess o% your %ee$"gs- you see+ re%uge %ro. your ""er ,or$& " ha)tua$ a*t!tes ,h*h you .ay per%or. " a" auto.at* .a""er' Co"ta*t"g your h&&e" e.oto"a$ se$% .ay )e &%%*u$t %or you# )e*ause you ha!e &e!e$ope& a $%et.e o% &e%e"ses aga"st pr.t!e $e!e$s o% "ee& a"& &epe"&e"*y ,h*h %rghte" you' You .ay %ee$ "te"se sha.e " regar& to the *h$&/se$% ,h*h s )ure& ,th" you' Represse& %or a $o"g t.e# your sa&"ess a"& $o"g"g .ay so.et.es )urst %orth as "%a"t$e tears# ,h*h see. regress!e a"& "approprate' +e A$*e " o"&er$a"& &ro,""g " the %$oo& o% her tears# you %ee$ o!er,he$.e&# a"& see+ to sue$*h %uture &sp$ays o% %ee$"g' Be stro"g-&o"t *ry .ay )e your .otto' You are a%ra& "ot o"$y o% &ro,""g " your %ee$"gs a"& your "ee&s# )ut a$so o% re!ea$"g your !u$"era)$ty to others# the" )e"g ree*te& or a)a"&o"e&' erhaps )e*ause o% trau.at* epere"*es as a *h$&# " ,h*h you epere"*e& u")eara)$e he$p$ess"ess# "ee&# a"& &epe"&e"*y " re$ato"shp to a pare"t ,ho *ou$& "ot se"st!e$y respo"&# you $ear"e& to tur" to yourse$% ear$y " $%e a"& to esta)$sh your se$%/ su%%*e"*y' .ust &o t a$o"e- &o"t "ee& a"yo"e# you &e*&e&# as you ,thhe$& yourse$% e.oto"a$$y " re$ato"shps# a"& $ear"e& ho, to e"gage ,th peop$e ,thout %u$$ "!o$!e.e"t' .oto"a$$y se$%/*o"ta"e& a"& "su$ate&# you )e*a.e a *apa)$e sur!!or# a"& $ear"e& ho, e%%e*t!e$y thesuste"a"*e' ro$es reure& o% you' But o%te"# as a resu$t o% your represso"# you %ee$ e.pty a"& &ep$ete&# out o% *o"ta*t ,th to your sour*e o%p$ay ""er % your .oo" s &eep$y )ure&# you .ay strugg$e aga"st %ear o% the pr.t!e "%a"t $o*+e& ,th" you# a"& aga"st a &esre to retur" to the ,o.) or to es*ape "to %a"tases o% tota$ "urtura"*e' :ear%u$ o% your pass!ty a"& your &esre %or .other$y $o!e# you *o.pe"sate through *u$t!at"g your a&u$t *o.pete"*es a"& )y )e*o."g a *areg!er' But a$though you are "&epe"&e"t " the eter"a$ ,or$&# you ho$& o"to your esta)$she& patter"s o% )eha!or a"& to ,hate!er "ter"a$ sour*es o% se*urty you ha!e &e!e$ope&' :or*e& to tur" to yourse$% ear$y " $%e# you $ear"e& ho, to ta+e *are o% yourse$%# a"& ho, to su)sttute )eha!ors a"& a*t!tes %or the "urtur"g %ro. others you && "ot re*e!e' You .ay as a resu$t )e *o.pu$s!e a)out your se$%/*areta+"g rtua$s# part*u$ar$y " regar& to %oo&' Te"&e"*es to,ar& a"orea# a&here"*e to str*t &ets# preo**upato" ,th *oo+"g# a"& %ear o% eat"g " restaura"ts are a$$ .a"%estato"s o% a t,e$%th house .oo"' So.et.es# you )e*o.e $$ as a .ea"s o% rest"g %ro. the &e.a"&s o% your a&u$t se$%# a"& " or&er to a$$o, yourse$% to re*e!e the *areta+"g that you see+' Your t,e$%th house .oo" suggests that you "e!er %e$t a$$o,e& to )e a *h$&' erhaps your .other ,as e.oto"a$$y a *h$& herse$%# a"& ,a"te& you to *ater to her "ee&s rather tha" )e*o.e *apa)$e o% respo"&"g to yours' She .ay ha!e )ee" &eep$y trou)$e&# psy*ho$og*a$$y or phys*a$$y u"a!a$a)$e- she .ay ha!e sa*r%*e& herse$% to "!o$!e.e"ts " the outer ,or$& at the epe"se o% her %a.$y $%e' hate!er your stuato"# her "egat!e respo"ses to your "ee&s a"& %ee$"gs# a"& her .essages o% &o"t *ry )e stro"g or &o t yourse$% $e& you
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to )e$e!e that you ha& "o rght to ha!e %ee$"gs' The hurt or trau.a you epere"*e& the" .ay ha!e resu$te& " a &eep/seate& &e*so" "e!er to .a+e yourse$% !u$"era)$e aga"' & rather &e tha" "ee& you# you .ay ha!e ",ar&$y sa& to your .other# )e*ause % "ee& you ,$$ ha!e to )ear the "to$era)$e pa" o% your %a$ure to .eet .y "ee&s' As you gre, o$&er# %ear"g the re/st.u$ato" a"& ope""g o% ear$er ,ou"&s# you .ay ha!e sa& to yourse$%# ,$$ "ot )e &epe"&e"t upo" a"yo"e e!er aga"' (%te" a t,e$%th house .oo" sg"%es a %a$ure " the ear$y atta*h.e"t )o"& ,th the .other# a$though a &eep ""er )o"& ,th her ests' Su*h a )o"& ; a**o.pa"e& )y &ea$
"%a"t )o"&' % you are .a$e# you .ay %ee$ "se*ure a)out the h&&e" %e.a$e ,th" you# ,h*h at t.es %ee$s $+e o!er,he$."g "ee& a"& pass!ty' You .ay &e!a$ue the %e.""e rea$.s o% $%e# ,h$e s.u$ta"eous$y &ea$<"g ,o.e"# %a$$"g " $o!e ,th ""er .ages a"& %a"tases# year""g %or the per%e*t ,o.a">.other>.ate# or attra*t"g *$"g"g# &epe"&e"t ,o.e" ,ho %or*e you to .a+e *o"ta*t ,th the e"erges you proe*t' To the ete"t to ,h*h you %ear your !u$"era)$ty a"& hu"ger %or "urtura"*e# you attra*t peop$e ,ho "ee& you a"& )e*o.e &epe"&e"t upo" you' :$ee"g %ro. re$ato"shps ,h*h a,a+e" your o," "ee&# you are "e!erthe$ess ute *apa)$e o% respo"&"g to "ee& " others' " %a*t# you .ay e!e" respo"& ,th a se"st!ty a"& sy.pathy ,h*h you are "*apa)$e o% g!"g to yourse$%' sy*h*a$$y se"st!e to others# you are attu"e& to ther %ee$"gs a"& "tut!e$y +"o, ,hat to say a"& &o'
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Be*ause you are a "atura$ *areta+er# you are pro)a)$y &ra," to ,or+ " the ser!*e pro%esso"s# ,here you *a" .eet the "ee&s o% ,ou"&e& or trou)$e& hu.a"ty' &e"t%y"g ,th the trou)$e&# $$ or ,ea+# you &e.o"strate your ta$e"t as a "urse# hea$er# or *ou"se$or' ?a!"g sa*r%*e& your perso"a$ .other to the ,or$&# you .ay a$so sa*r%*e your perso"a$ .other"g "ee&s " or&er to .other hu.a"ty as a ,ho$e' You see+ to g!e to others ,hat you a$,ays ,a"te& to re*e!e' Su*h g!"g .ay "ot %$$ the e.pty spa*e ,th" you# )ut t &oes pro!&e !*arous sats%a*to" a"& the epere"*e o% ha!"g .a&e a sg"%*a"t so*a$ *o"tr)uto"' A"other a&!a"tage o% your t,e$%th house .oo" s your +ee" "tuto" a" ""ate sprtua$ty' Be*ause o% your se"st!ty# you "ee& to spe"& a *o"s&era)$e a.ou"t o% t.e a$o"e# re%$e*t"g upo" aspe*ts o% your perso"a$ $%e ,h*h you &o "ot share ,th others# a"& *$ear"g yourse$% o% the psy*h* o!er$oa& you ha!e a**u.u$ate& as a resu$t o% too .u*h *o"ta*t' Your so$tu&e .ay a$so )e .porta"t to you )e*ause t he$ps you to rega" *o"ta*t ,th yourse$%# to *o""e*t ,th your %ee$"g "ature# a"& through .e&tato"# .us*# or other pursuts# to $et go o% the ,a$$s you ha!e *reate& a"& surre"&er to %or*es greater tha" yourse$%' Be*ause you ha!e preser!e& your true *h$& se$% &eep ,th" you# " a %or. that s $arge$y u"tou*he& )y the ,or$&# you are *apa)$e o% *o"ta*t"g a"& &ra,"g %ro. r*h sour*es o% ""er "oursh.e"t ,h*h res&e ,th that *h$&' Be*ause ts )ou"&ares are th"# t s *apa)$e o% ope""ess to sprtua$ rea$.s' The .ore you are a)$e to ho"or that ar*ha* *h$& ,th" you# the .ore you ,$$ )e*o.e attu"e& to your &!"e "ature a"& )e a)$e to e"r*h yourse$% ,th the ope""ess to hgher e"erges ,h*h t *a" o%%er you' You "ee& to *o"ta*t# a**ept# a"& e.)ra*e the *h$& ,th" you# to to$erate ts terror o% a)a"&o".e"t a"& ts pr.t!e %ee$"gs a"& "ee&s# a"& to $ear" to soothe a"& reassure t' :ee$"g/ore"te& therapy# re/)rth"g# se$%/psy*ho$ogy# pr.a$ therapy# a"& past/$!es therapy a$$ .ay %a*$tate ths pro*ess' As you )eg" to a*+"o,$e&ge a"& ho"or your ""er *h$&# you .ay a$so *hoose to *reate %or yourse$% a ho.e ,h*h s tru$y "oursh"g# a"& ,h*h he$ps you to %ee$ ,ar.# sa%e# a"& e.oto"a$$y se*ure' ("*e you )eg" to hear# a**ept# a"& .eet the rea$ "ee&s o% your ""er *h$&# you ,$$ epere"*e a se"se o% rea$"ess a"& ,ho$e"ess ,h*h pre!ous$y ,as "a**ess)$e to you- you ,$$ a$so )e a)$e to g!e to others .ore e%%e*t!e$y# to .eet ther rea$ "ee&s# rather tha" !*arous$y us"g the. as a .ea"s %or re*o!er"g your $ost se$%' @
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